I’ve Been Here Before…


Yesterday my oldest daughter got up early and did a trial run of the morning school routine. In a housecoat with coffee in hand, I watched her test out her planned schedule such as how effective it was to lay out her school clothes and how long it took her dress, eat and brush teeth. All she needed was a clipboard and stopwatch, and this breakfast-theatre would be complete.

Can you tell she was excited to go back to school?

At almost 7 years old, today was Isabelle’s first day in Grade 2 {and in case you’re wondering, the morning went seamlessly well}. Believe me, I smile {and do a little dance} at the thought of back-to-school – yet this morning surprisingly made me really sad.

She’s now in Grade 2 – so I’ve been here before, going through the much anticipated first-day, a few times already. Yet this was the first time she got ready for her first day, all by herself. In fact, Isabelle didn’t need me for anything but to drive the van to our destination. When did all this happen?

Our walk from the van to the school consisted of dirty looks each time I took a photo {I admit, I didn’t need 50 photos. Maybe}. And, she wouldn’t let me hold her hand along the way.

When we entered her classroom, she saw only a couple friends from her Grade 1 class. I could see her confidence diminish, a look of fear on her face. She sat down in her seat and hunched over in disappointment. Wanting to ease her discomfort, I started chatting with some kids nearby and including my daughter in the conversation. Isabelle immediately perked up, giving me a look of relief, that told me that she would be ok.

Before I started to leave her side, I resisted the urge to cover her in kisses. Instead, I stood and looked once again at the growing and independent child that was no longer my baby.

Again, that smile that has melted my heart many times over caught my eyes.
“Mom…. I really love you”, she said and not even caring that so many ears were listening.

Yes, I’ve been here before. But it never gets easier.



  1. says

    So sweet!! I loved reading your post. I always say how excited I am that my kids are going back to school, but this year, my youngest starts and I think it will be the hardest!!

  2. Lynette says

    That is so beautiful Tammi! I have yet to experience this… at 3 mine already rarely wants to hold my hand :( Very sad.

    I’m glad to hear however that “I love You’s” still come.

    Enjoy the school year Isabelle!!

  3. Janice F says

    Aww! Reading this post gives me hope that I’ll survive when the time comes for my little ones to go off to school. For now, I’ll hold them close and pretend they’ll be 1 and 3 forever!


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